Where Is Your Peace?
In His will is our Peace.
I am struck by this statement. It keeps replaying in my mind again and again.
As I reflect upon it, I believe it is so true. His will for each of us is the best. Why? Because He created each one of us. He formed us in our mother’s womb. He chose every part of us. Since He created us, He knows us intimately, He knows what makes us smile, He knows what makes us cry. He knows what we need. He knows our past. He knows our future.
I believe this statement is true because I have personally experienced it. I lived 33 years on my own, without knowing the God who created me. During those years, I felt lots of fear, I felt unloved, I felt like I could never measure up, I felt happiness, I felt sadness, I felt nothing, and I felt everything. I made some good choices but I also made some poor choices that impacted me for many, many years.
My life, by the time I was 33, was a shambles in so many ways. I was separated from my narcissistic husband, raising two young boys of 4 and 5 years old, working full time, commuting an hour or more to work, juggling household responsibilities, dealing with the legal battle of a vindictive man, struggling to get through each day. I did not have peace at all. I did not have joy in my heart. I did not know God so I did not know His will for me.
Six months after my husband left is when I found out there was a God who knew me and loved me. He had worked out circumstances in a very unique way to bring me to a church an hour from home so I could hear Him tell me He loved me. He placed me in a group of other single parents so He could show me that I could enjoy the company of others.
Over those first few years of getting to know my Creator He showed me much Truth. As I struggled to surrender my will to His, I can’t say I understood His ways or His peace. Surrender was a scary thought. What did it mean to really follow Jesus? What would I have to give up? What would life look like?
I didn’t know the answers to those questions so it took me a long time to finally give in. Once I made the decision to fully surrender myself to Him and go deeper with Him, I found that a life lived for Him was not scary. It was not filled with restrictions rather it was filled with freedoms with protective boundaries to provide an abundant life! It was a life that I could never have dreamed or imagined.
In this new life, I have found His Peace as I live out His will. I continue today even, learning more about living His will. I believe I will continue to learn this every day for the rest of my life here on earth.
This I know is truth… In His will is our Peace.
Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart Ps37:4